All I Ever Wanted

All I ever wanted
turned into something I never knew.
Blood colored manacles on my wrists, the reflection of that wish.
Incandescent light blotted out the rain
Fire and brimstone tear through my skin
Trembling, terrified the thought of everything I have ever wanted is the silkiest kiss

All I ever wanted
turned into what I don’t miss
Frantic spasm of the crushed wing my angel did not deliver
Virtuous relief can not soothe the sting of wanting what I never knew
Standing silent
while dancing in the Devil’s ring
Nothing is as nothing does
holds true
Patient dreams disappear in the bright fissures of time

All I ever wanted was never real
Justify the counting, ticking in my head.
It must be somewhere this thing that hides in the sand of solitude.
Beating black mass of things that were never said.
Can’t find them, the words have run so very fast ahead.

Taunt me
Trick me
Tell me something new.
Entertain my glory with wisdom’s edge.
Delight my fancy with sarcasm’s worry.

Tell me.
Tell me.
Tell me something I never knew.
All I ever wanted was for me, never for you.

 

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